When a serious illness unexpectedly left me hospitalised on a work trip to India I knew something had to change. I stumbled across the wellness world in an attempt to find a solution to "feeling less broken"; and my curiosity led me down a rabbit hole of studying neuroscience, psychology, medicine and movement. It helped me recover from my illness but I still kept going in my career like nothing had changed. And then...enter burnout. And it changed everything!
It wasn't always like this. Not that long ago, I was a c-suite executive at a global investment bank. I had the corner office on the trading floor, working hand in glove with the best CEOs, travelling the world and living a lifestyle beyond my wildest dreams. My life looked perfect on the outside, but I felt completely broken on the inside. I was focused on chasing success and so for 15+ years my "normal" was working 16+ hr days, seven days a week, and always being on call.
I decided to I leave my corporate career of 15+ years. I relocated to London, took a sabbatical, travelled the world and spent time with loved ones. I followed my curiosity and continued my studies in neuroscience and nervous system regulation. I mapped out my dream life and decided that it was time to stop dreaming and instead time to take action. I opened the doors to my private practice and the rest is history!
Between the pressures of my corporate career, graduate school and the pandemic I ended up burning out severely - surprise, surprise! I was so tired I couldn't get out of bed for three months and ended up spending a year on medical leave unable to work. This finally forced me to pause and was the wake up call I needed to realise something needed to change.
I relocated to Ireland with my company and decided to go to graduate school. Whilst working full-time in my investment banking career (type A that I am!) , I studied neuroscience & psychology at Columbia University, focusing on the mind-body connection and "commuting" from Dublin to New York to go school.
I was living in Asia, working long hours, travelling 6 days a week and permanently jet lagged. When an illness landed me in hospital in India, I started looking for solutions in the medical and alternative medicine world to recover. I trained as a yoga and meditation teacher, studied Traditional Chinese Medicine, Ayurveda and became a certified health coach.
the year where it all began
And the best is yet to come
I could barely think straight let alone make basic decisions. I had gut and hormonal issues, panic attacks, insomnia, severe anxiety and so the list goes on. The number of times I sat crying on my kitchen floor wondering if I'd ever feel normal again were too many to keep count. It wasn't until I started working with nervous system regulation, movement and understanding my human design that things started to improve. It wasn't easy, but step by step I started changing every aspect of my life. It took me two years to make a full recovery and a lot of mindset work to completely reimagine what I wanted life to look like. Sometimes I can't believe the life I live now: living in Europe, running my own business and working with the dreamiest clients - not to mention how amazing I feel. And yes, I didn't think feeling this good was possible! I used to think I had to choose between success, a healthy body and a meaningful life - when in reality it was a choice I never needed to make.
And so I never really worried much about stress. Or fear of the unknown. In fact, not much fazed me, and at work I was often described as unflappable, and the one always thriving under pressure. I loved the excitement that a high-pressure, highly volatile career gave me - it was beyond addictive! As was the thrill of chasing success. So I spent much of my adult life chasing the pay rise, the promotion, a bigger house, and all of the other external markers of "success". And I was well on my way to having the status, power and money that I thought I wanted and needed. I never questioned any of it until burnout left me unable to work for a year and forced me for the first time ever, to slow down and really sit with myself. There were no distractions. No emails. No calls. No meetings. Nothing. And I had a complete meltdown!